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Monday, October 1, 2012
Friday, September 28, 2012
I Can't Think of Clever Titles
I just can't. I read loads of blogs and they always have clever titles. I just...can't. I don't know why. It doesn't seem like it should be that difficult. It makes me feel like the least creative person on the face of the planet. But hey, at least I can carry a tune ;)
I was reading some older posts and I found the one talking about getting kicked out a local park one night. I said something along the lines of use not having tattoos, piercings, crazy hair, etc, but of course I type too fast and don't always think about what I write. Other times I think too much and explain why I write the things I do. This is probably one situation where I should have explained myself. I didn't mean that people with tattoos, piercings, and all there are bad people. I LOVE those kinds of people (give or take a few, but that's with every sub culture) and if I were not attached (socially and legally) to the people I'm attached to, I would probably be covered. Besides, I've seen what skin does when you age :P
I just meant that in our situation, most police officers would take that improperly and assume, based on how you look, that you were either well behaved or vandalizing. It's quite sad, but unfortunately that is usually the case.
I have also talked about food issues. I started having mild (yesterday was quite bad, actually) panic attacks when I get home from work. It's probably really silly to most people, and I try to convince myself that it is, but it's really a big issues for me. I stress out over the simplest food decisions. I'm used to coming home and snacking, even if I'm not hungry. In an effort to break this habit, I've started bypassing the kitchen and going straight into other areas of the house because I'm apparently weak with no willpower and have stuffed my face before I've even thought to stop myself. Then I'm devastated because I definitely just did that.
It's usually something sweet, the other day it was leftover mac and cheese. I did good one day and made a low calorie cake in a mug, but I'm not always in the proper mindset to make a good choice and usually completely sabotage any good efforts I've made during the day. Yesterday, just walking into the kitchen and being in the room caused my ears to get hot and I had to sit down because I was making myself sick and dizzy over the issue. It feels like the silliest thing ever. I had to make a cup of hot tea last night to chill out because I was so upset by that reaction that I couldn't sleep.
And I go through phases like this. I'll be fine some weeks and feel I've really gotten a handle on my eating and food choices, then I'll completely relapse into a horrible relationship, whether it's letting go of my "diet" altogether or just stressing out about little choices. I know I'm not alone and that other people have these issues, too, but I feel crazy for even feeling like that. I mean, it's freaking food. What's so hard about it?!?!
I should mention that the kitchen is most definitely not clean because of this. It's *that* ridiculous :/
I was reading some older posts and I found the one talking about getting kicked out a local park one night. I said something along the lines of use not having tattoos, piercings, crazy hair, etc, but of course I type too fast and don't always think about what I write. Other times I think too much and explain why I write the things I do. This is probably one situation where I should have explained myself. I didn't mean that people with tattoos, piercings, and all there are bad people. I LOVE those kinds of people (give or take a few, but that's with every sub culture) and if I were not attached (socially and legally) to the people I'm attached to, I would probably be covered. Besides, I've seen what skin does when you age :P
I just meant that in our situation, most police officers would take that improperly and assume, based on how you look, that you were either well behaved or vandalizing. It's quite sad, but unfortunately that is usually the case.
I have also talked about food issues. I started having mild (yesterday was quite bad, actually) panic attacks when I get home from work. It's probably really silly to most people, and I try to convince myself that it is, but it's really a big issues for me. I stress out over the simplest food decisions. I'm used to coming home and snacking, even if I'm not hungry. In an effort to break this habit, I've started bypassing the kitchen and going straight into other areas of the house because I'm apparently weak with no willpower and have stuffed my face before I've even thought to stop myself. Then I'm devastated because I definitely just did that.
It's usually something sweet, the other day it was leftover mac and cheese. I did good one day and made a low calorie cake in a mug, but I'm not always in the proper mindset to make a good choice and usually completely sabotage any good efforts I've made during the day. Yesterday, just walking into the kitchen and being in the room caused my ears to get hot and I had to sit down because I was making myself sick and dizzy over the issue. It feels like the silliest thing ever. I had to make a cup of hot tea last night to chill out because I was so upset by that reaction that I couldn't sleep.
And I go through phases like this. I'll be fine some weeks and feel I've really gotten a handle on my eating and food choices, then I'll completely relapse into a horrible relationship, whether it's letting go of my "diet" altogether or just stressing out about little choices. I know I'm not alone and that other people have these issues, too, but I feel crazy for even feeling like that. I mean, it's freaking food. What's so hard about it?!?!
I should mention that the kitchen is most definitely not clean because of this. It's *that* ridiculous :/
Random Bits of Energy
I think I need more fruits and veggies in my life. I'm been feeling sluggish. Yesterday was the most energetic I've been in a while. I think it's just too many carbs, not enough actual nutrients...maybe not enough water.
Anyway, I FINALLY got new shoes! :D
I REALLY wanted these for their color, but they weren't on sale.
I'm having second thoughts, though. I mean, any time we go out on long foot trips, I have to wear my tennis shoes, and the teal really won't match anything so I'll be stuck wearing not so comfy shoes. Blah. So silly.
I'm having some serious allergy issues, too. I think it's the office. My nose is stopped up, but all of my membranes are DRY...eyes included. Nonsense!
This weekend should prove to be most eventful, hoping along the lines of exciting and not so much the lines of stressful :)
Hope you guys have a good weekend!
Make good choices ;)
Anyway, I FINALLY got new shoes! :D
I REALLY wanted these for their color, but they weren't on sale.
I settled for the teal because they're the EXACT same shoe, just different color, and these were actually on sale (clearance, woo!), which I still love as far as fit and support goes, but I can't wear them with everything like I can the grey ones.
I'm having second thoughts, though. I mean, any time we go out on long foot trips, I have to wear my tennis shoes, and the teal really won't match anything so I'll be stuck wearing not so comfy shoes. Blah. So silly.
I'm having some serious allergy issues, too. I think it's the office. My nose is stopped up, but all of my membranes are DRY...eyes included. Nonsense!
This weekend should prove to be most eventful, hoping along the lines of exciting and not so much the lines of stressful :)
Hope you guys have a good weekend!
Make good choices ;)
Tuesday, September 25, 2012
Something in the Water?
So, last night was almost worse than yesterday morning. It was a simple morning. Something goes wrong, I tell him whats wrong and leave...essentially, between all the dramatics. I come home, think he's in the bathroom so I crash on the couch to nap because I'm so sleepy after 3am wake up calls. Later when I wake up I go in the bedroom to wake him up from his nap (his sleep schedule is as bad as mine) and end up wasting and hour sitting there in silence just waiting for him to say something. I'm clueless and don't know what the problem is because it was mostly resolved this morning so I reiterate that "I didn't mean to turn on the A/C, just the fan".
Still no word from him. Turns out he's all nervous because he thought he upset me. He was never in the bathroom because as soon as he heard me come in the house after work he disappeared into the computer room. Dramatics, I say! This is what I live with on a daily basis. You'd think he belongs in a theater or something with his shows. An hour of silence that I could have been doing laundry or dishes, but no! I'm waiting on sappy husband to say something. I was really fed up and tired of always being the one to respond to his issues and never to be the one asked about how I'm feeling. It's ridiculous. We do this every several months, thankfully less than we used to so that's progress, right?
He finally said he didn't mean to upset me by reacting the way he did. Yes, it took and hour for him to say that and it all to be over with. Then I was starving because my nervousness finally disappeared and made me realize that I was also sick to my stomach because I was hungry and not just upset or irritated. Silly, I know. I try to stay calm when talking to him, but I never know what theatrics he's going to pull so I always get nervous and anxious waiting for him to talk.
Not much else happened. Oh! I reiterated the 3am wake up call thing again and he woke me up at 1:20 instead. Not great, but much better than 3 :)
Still no word from him. Turns out he's all nervous because he thought he upset me. He was never in the bathroom because as soon as he heard me come in the house after work he disappeared into the computer room. Dramatics, I say! This is what I live with on a daily basis. You'd think he belongs in a theater or something with his shows. An hour of silence that I could have been doing laundry or dishes, but no! I'm waiting on sappy husband to say something. I was really fed up and tired of always being the one to respond to his issues and never to be the one asked about how I'm feeling. It's ridiculous. We do this every several months, thankfully less than we used to so that's progress, right?
He finally said he didn't mean to upset me by reacting the way he did. Yes, it took and hour for him to say that and it all to be over with. Then I was starving because my nervousness finally disappeared and made me realize that I was also sick to my stomach because I was hungry and not just upset or irritated. Silly, I know. I try to stay calm when talking to him, but I never know what theatrics he's going to pull so I always get nervous and anxious waiting for him to talk.
Not much else happened. Oh! I reiterated the 3am wake up call thing again and he woke me up at 1:20 instead. Not great, but much better than 3 :)
Monday, September 24, 2012
Put Me Out, Please
I didn't realize it had been so long since posting. Things have just been insane. Hubby's grandma passed last Sunday, my birthday was Tuesday, Zoo on Saturday with a cookout, then hiking yesterday.
We were in a panic trying to figure out how to at least get hubster, if not both of us, out to Texas for the funeral, but it just was practical, both financially, mentally, and schedule wise. Tuesday we had the whole gang plus my mom and her boyfriend over for dinner. We had breakfast tacos! Most people left around midnight, but we had a couple stay until 2:30am. I was so sleepy the next day, but it was so worth it! So happy to have found friends who like to play Rock Band (because our other friends burned out years ago). I sang and others even at least tried playing drums. Up until that point no one would even try them. So lame.
I feel like other stuff happened during the week. Oh, Thursday we went to the grocery store and didn't get home until 10:30 so we made a super fast, super late, dinner and watched Doctor Who. Friday was a joy ride with a good friend of ours in a car he borrowed from the dealership he works for. He was supposed to diagnose a problem...the check engine light kept coming on...except when he drove it. Diagnosis? The former driver is an idiot who runs his cars too hard and doesn't treat them right. Figures.
Saturday we went to the zoo! So awesome! It's a tour guide only zoo that allows you up close to the animals instead of stretching your neck like the giraffes like a public zoos. So cool.
Bongos:
Capybara:
Antelope:
Got to feed the Lorikeets:
And feed a giraffe! :
Flamingos:
More giraffes:
My friends and family who joined me:
Kangaroos:
Servals:
Lemur:
Monkey:
Panorama:
Blue Macaw:
Red Macaw:
Stork:
Zebra:
This was all fun and awesome and we grilled out at our place afterward. If you guys are ever in the area you should check it out: http://www.brightszoo.com/
All zoo photos in this post are courtesy of our good friend Nathaniel Daught: http://daught.me/
Yesterday we went hiking. 5 ish mile round trip. It's usually quite fun, but I didn't enjoy this trip as much. My feet and ankles started killing me and we went with a group of 8 people instead of 2 or 3 so I just wasn't mentally prepared for it. I NEED new workout shoes super bad. My lack of support caused me to get a mild sprain in my right ankle. I came home and slept for like 3 hours too since I woke up so early and super exerted myself. The waterfall was ALMOST worth it, but not quite...it was rather cold out:
This photo was not by Nathaniel.
We were in a panic trying to figure out how to at least get hubster, if not both of us, out to Texas for the funeral, but it just was practical, both financially, mentally, and schedule wise. Tuesday we had the whole gang plus my mom and her boyfriend over for dinner. We had breakfast tacos! Most people left around midnight, but we had a couple stay until 2:30am. I was so sleepy the next day, but it was so worth it! So happy to have found friends who like to play Rock Band (because our other friends burned out years ago). I sang and others even at least tried playing drums. Up until that point no one would even try them. So lame.
I feel like other stuff happened during the week. Oh, Thursday we went to the grocery store and didn't get home until 10:30 so we made a super fast, super late, dinner and watched Doctor Who. Friday was a joy ride with a good friend of ours in a car he borrowed from the dealership he works for. He was supposed to diagnose a problem...the check engine light kept coming on...except when he drove it. Diagnosis? The former driver is an idiot who runs his cars too hard and doesn't treat them right. Figures.
Saturday we went to the zoo! So awesome! It's a tour guide only zoo that allows you up close to the animals instead of stretching your neck like the giraffes like a public zoos. So cool.
Bongos:
Capybara:
Antelope:
Got to feed the Lorikeets:
And feed a giraffe! :
Flamingos:
More giraffes:
My friends and family who joined me:
Kangaroos:
Servals:
Monkey:
Panorama:
Blue Macaw:
Red Macaw:
Stork:
Zebra:
This was all fun and awesome and we grilled out at our place afterward. If you guys are ever in the area you should check it out: http://www.brightszoo.com/
All zoo photos in this post are courtesy of our good friend Nathaniel Daught: http://daught.me/
Yesterday we went hiking. 5 ish mile round trip. It's usually quite fun, but I didn't enjoy this trip as much. My feet and ankles started killing me and we went with a group of 8 people instead of 2 or 3 so I just wasn't mentally prepared for it. I NEED new workout shoes super bad. My lack of support caused me to get a mild sprain in my right ankle. I came home and slept for like 3 hours too since I woke up so early and super exerted myself. The waterfall was ALMOST worth it, but not quite...it was rather cold out:
This photo was not by Nathaniel.
Friday, September 14, 2012
Seasons Change
Yesterday was a bit of a whirlwind of emotions. I put my fitbit to the test by walking 50 minutes or so. Seems accurate so far! There's a little bit of a learning curve in regards to syncing, but easy fixes nonetheless. Apparently when a Mac goes to sleep it severs the connection to the USB so I have to unplug and re-plug the USB cable if I want it to sync. Ryan has informed me that there is a way to let the computer go to sleep without having certain actions discontinue also so it sounds like I'll be able to fix it and not worry about it.
When I got home I had packages waiting for me! I got this stoneware pie plate and french rolling pin from my best friend for my birthday!
http://www.amazon.com/Good-Cook-Inch-Ceramic-Plate/dp/B0026RHI78/ref=wl_it_dp_o_nS_nC?ie=UTF8&colid=Z9KCJ7E8HWB&coliid=I332NBXZSVSTXQ
http://www.amazon.com/Vic-Firth-French-Rolling-Pin/dp/B00004RHPW/ref=wl_it_dp_o_nS_nC?ie=UTF8&colid=Z9KCJ7E8HWB&coliid=I3IKV5IRW8E449
I sent her a text saying "those are big boxes O.o" and she asked if I had opened them *big smiley* so I got impatient (because I'm 5 at heart) and opened them almost a week early (birthday is next Tuesday). It's ironic, too, but I'll get to that later this week ;)
We had dinner (if you call finger foods dinner) at our friend's house because it was actually her boyfriend's birthday yesterday, not mine. They went ahead and gave me their present as well. What is with these people?!?! I guess she assumed I knew what it was since she had asked if I wanted it as a since I'm "hard to shop for" even though I have an Amazon wishlist FULL of stuff :P We don't like any sort of mystery in our relationship, apparently.
On the way home, Ryan received a call from his mom saying his grandma will likely be passing very very soon. We've been preparing ourselves for it and so far Ryan has been really calm and rational about it. I'm sure he'll have his moments (me too...), but we both agree that if we were her age and had been through all she's been through that we'd be ready to reunite with our loved ones who have passed before us. Hospice is just making sure she's as comfortable as possible right now in her last moments.
We talked a lot about our lives and the development of our relationship and relationships to those around us and how things are changing with everyone into a new stage. He said he didn't know why he felt that way, but that something is definitely happening. I described it a change of energy, in general, around us. He said that was a very Celtic way of looking at it, which is funny because I've been looking more into my heritage, but I haven't read anything about energy and nature and that sort of thing yet...it's just something I've always believed in. I don't mean it in any sort of religious or non religious way. I just...believe it. All organic beings are fueled by atoms aka energy. We feed our body food because the energy that helped the food grow converts to energy needed for US to grow. It's just fact. Seasons change because of the sun rotating...because atoms, mass, etc (all energy) cause it to do so. Call is spirituality, religion, or whatever. The basics of it are the same :)
Anyway, things have been..eventful. I've been playing a lot of piano to cope with it all. Music = therapy.
I hope you guys are having a wonderful Friday! Don't let these absurd political figures drive you insane as election comes upon us.
Make good choices!
What fun things are you doing this weekend? We've got more birthday celebrating (our friend's, not mine lol) and morning glories that are taking over our porch to take care of...hopefully working on a new painting.
When I got home I had packages waiting for me! I got this stoneware pie plate and french rolling pin from my best friend for my birthday!
http://www.amazon.com/Good-Cook-Inch-Ceramic-Plate/dp/B0026RHI78/ref=wl_it_dp_o_nS_nC?ie=UTF8&colid=Z9KCJ7E8HWB&coliid=I332NBXZSVSTXQ
http://www.amazon.com/Vic-Firth-French-Rolling-Pin/dp/B00004RHPW/ref=wl_it_dp_o_nS_nC?ie=UTF8&colid=Z9KCJ7E8HWB&coliid=I3IKV5IRW8E449
I sent her a text saying "those are big boxes O.o" and she asked if I had opened them *big smiley* so I got impatient (because I'm 5 at heart) and opened them almost a week early (birthday is next Tuesday). It's ironic, too, but I'll get to that later this week ;)
We had dinner (if you call finger foods dinner) at our friend's house because it was actually her boyfriend's birthday yesterday, not mine. They went ahead and gave me their present as well. What is with these people?!?! I guess she assumed I knew what it was since she had asked if I wanted it as a since I'm "hard to shop for" even though I have an Amazon wishlist FULL of stuff :P We don't like any sort of mystery in our relationship, apparently.
On the way home, Ryan received a call from his mom saying his grandma will likely be passing very very soon. We've been preparing ourselves for it and so far Ryan has been really calm and rational about it. I'm sure he'll have his moments (me too...), but we both agree that if we were her age and had been through all she's been through that we'd be ready to reunite with our loved ones who have passed before us. Hospice is just making sure she's as comfortable as possible right now in her last moments.
We talked a lot about our lives and the development of our relationship and relationships to those around us and how things are changing with everyone into a new stage. He said he didn't know why he felt that way, but that something is definitely happening. I described it a change of energy, in general, around us. He said that was a very Celtic way of looking at it, which is funny because I've been looking more into my heritage, but I haven't read anything about energy and nature and that sort of thing yet...it's just something I've always believed in. I don't mean it in any sort of religious or non religious way. I just...believe it. All organic beings are fueled by atoms aka energy. We feed our body food because the energy that helped the food grow converts to energy needed for US to grow. It's just fact. Seasons change because of the sun rotating...because atoms, mass, etc (all energy) cause it to do so. Call is spirituality, religion, or whatever. The basics of it are the same :)
Anyway, things have been..eventful. I've been playing a lot of piano to cope with it all. Music = therapy.
I hope you guys are having a wonderful Friday! Don't let these absurd political figures drive you insane as election comes upon us.
Make good choices!
What fun things are you doing this weekend? We've got more birthday celebrating (our friend's, not mine lol) and morning glories that are taking over our porch to take care of...hopefully working on a new painting.
Wednesday, September 12, 2012
And All The Fixin's
Yesterday I went home and napped. Oops. I ended up waking at 7:45, pussy footed around dinner plans because Ryan wasn't that hungry and I was starving, so I had a packet of instant oats (because I'm daring like that) and was fine and less irritable for more thinking about dinner. We can't do meal plans and all that stuff because Ryan is an emotional eater. He likes to enjoy his food and likes to eat what he craves. I personally DO. NOT. CARE. Seriously, I just need food...fuel. I don't care what it is as long as it doesn't taste awful...it doesn't even have to be good, just not awful.
After throwing around steak with whatever and possibly fajitas, I threw out chicken and dumplings because we had Cracker Barrel the other night and we had lots of chicken in the fridge and it's been a comfort food kind of week. This immediately hit home with Ryan so we talked about his Grandma. We get distracted easily and I wasn't starving anymore (oatmeal!) so I wasn't all cranky and was more willing to talk :)
At first, the thought of making chicken and dumplings scared me because he is picky. He won't admit it, but he is. Also, his grandma is under hospice care reaching her last days with us so trying to tackle something as nostalgic and sacred as grandma's chicken and dumplings is a terrifying thing to do! I didn't know if he'd have a break down (because he's been really calm about her illness so far) or...I just didn't know, because like I said...he's emotional and dramatic. Like, I'm pretty sure I wear the pants in our house. At the mention of Cracker Barrel chicken and dumplings, he brought up their biscuits, so I tried not one, but two "copy cat" recipes. This should have been a disaster!
At the end of it, my kitchen looked like a tornado hit it and dinner was served. He took a bite, thought for a second, took another bite, and started shoveling food into his mouth. He loved it! He was extremely enthusiastic and in disbelief (as was I). I'm not a bit biscuit fan, but THESE biscuits tasted just like the restaurant biscuits...perfectly crisp on the outside, and soft and doughy on the inside. SO GOOD. And the chicken and dumplings were a huge hit. I've had a few flops recently in the kitchen (our oven is finicky) and I was afraid this would be another one, but they were so good he called our friends and invited them over tonight for leftovers since there was so much food!...just like Cracker Barrel ;) I still can't get over it.
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